Hello world.

I can split my life into two, the before me and the after me.

Its that one event that changes you so much you never quite recover. Its been over a year now since my breakdown and whilst its not as raw now; the hurt, anger, confusion is still there just below the surface.

But thats a story for another day.

Today was a good day, a day where i feel i can take on the world. I sort of feel a bit like my old self today. Its a strange feeling, both happy and sad. Happy to know that parts of myself that i thought where long gone are still in there somewhere; But also sad that something that used to be "normal" to me is now an achievement.

Everything is different about me now, i never noticed when i changed, but its like one day i looked into the mirror and didnt recognise the girl staring back at me.

Thats when i decided that im not going to wait around for me to suddenly feel better, my daughter deserves better and so do i for that matter.

So i decided to start this blog. A warts and all insight into my life as a single mother battling against depression, anxiety and my daughters addiction to surprise egg videos and youtube.

Not wanting to sound cliche but its about time i found myself again, i know there will be good days and bad, but for the first time in a very long time i feel strong and positive.